Adventist Youth Carolers 2008

Ada kawan-kawan tanya what I’ve been doing this week sampai inda attend tu KE meeting. Minta maaf banyak-banyak sebab I’m currently busy escort tu church youth pigi rumah-rumah untuk caroling ni. We’ve been taking pics from every houses yang siorang lawat then the pics will be presented during the church’s homecoming program. (^_^)V

Bila Kittle Menyanyi…

Minta maaf lah kepada kamurang yang sampai tersembur keluar time minum2 bila nampak tu gambar di bawah sana… Hahahahahhahah~ Anyway, tinguk2lah this kajen of mine (Kittle) yang baru umur 4 tahun menyanyi lagu Bunga Citra Lestari….

Undecided

I’ve been thinking, considering (what else ah?) about this matter lately… The probabilities I can make are:

Probability 1: If I accept the task, then I have to serve… Committed and have to face what ahead of me.

Probability 2: If I don’t accept the task, I may hurt those who are expecting me to do the job. Well, of course, some might be happy if I just quit being a leader (well, I’d be happy to know who’s that person… Just to kill my curiosity mah~). I don’t mind if she/he asked me to do so… I don’t mind because he/she may take my place mah~. Aku mimang jahat kalau sudah sampai tahap jahat…

Probability 3: Whether I accept or not, the thing is I still have to do the job. I may quit anytime but I may turn down some people and of course do enlighten some who doesn’t quite like my style.

Probability 4: —–buat kerja sendiri saja——

@ Bukit Bintang

don’t ask me… I’m currently in Bukit Bintang now… Waiting for Sasha & the others to come and then we’ll do our shopping again… Will be meeting Novie at The Gardens… She has already promised to bring us round KL tonight. Semalam dah jumpa si Novie @ Mid Valley… hehehehe… Sadap wor tu Volcano Chocs… *cheers*

@ Yogitree, The Gardens, Mid Valley. My cousin, Novie, is working there… Well, at least she leads a great life there… Dapat discount makanan… Nasib inda manis lah… Sadap tu Mangonana… Should try their Volcano Chocolate (served with Vanilla ice-cream lagi). The Apple Pie oso sadapa wor… Kobihis sia balik… Novie oso bagi me tapau cakes… SADAP!!!!!

p.s. will upload the pics soon…

The Burden is Lifted Up

I went to the church just now as my cousins were asking me to come along and then Annette wanted to pay for the badge fees. So, okaylah… I drove my Rush to the church, tagged Sasha along as there’s a place which looks really spooky… The villagers said there’s this Ms. Rebonding bah kunun. Didn’t get out of the car as I wasn’t feeling quite well as I haven’t eaten for a whole day. Just some glasses of water and soy bean. Didn’t have the mood as I was still thinking about the problem. So, while I was waiting for the kids (and was waiting for Uncle Henry also) I thought that I should share with someone (other than my mum or aunt), at least be willing to share his/her opinion. I don’t really mind if he/she listens to my craps but I would really appreciate if he/she can share opinion or suggestion. I’m trying hard to motivate myself – THINK POSITIVE.

So, I dialed the number (was hoping that I wasn’t disturbing). Wallla! Chatted for about half an hour and I finally feel like my burden is lifted up. The feeling is lightened up a bit. Thanks, buddy! You’re really a good at giving advice. Nearly forgot yang God masih ada. Nantilah sia treats ko gula-gula tungtung. Hahahahhaa~ If ko minta kirim ole-ole pun, dalam otak sia Nike cap saja sebab memang itu aim sia juga mo collect Nike cap…

HAPPY SABBATH!

It Hurts To Have The Present & Future

Been busy these few days… Busy apa juga other than driving saja. I also stopped by at Auntie Ann’s place just to meet Kittle and helping her to set up with her new laptop. Tagged along with my 2 other girls – Sasha & Naz. Was supposed to bring along Pippy but she has to head back to KB as her auntie (I guess) is getting married this Saturday. I even planned to treat Pippy during her 15th birthday this coming Sunday as I won’t be around in KK for a week. Not sure lah if jadi atau tidak…

Something’s bugging my mind lately and I’m trying to figure out if ‘m in the right lane or I’m in the state of unable to satisfy the minds of other people, etc. Everyone has their own perceptions and expectations – I can’t satisfy or expect they have the same thinking as mine. I can’t demand them to think like me or even to have my ideas to be accepted… I can only voice out what lies deep inside my heart but I don’t expect people to agree with my ideas. If only I have the power to read other people’s mind… Yeah, I’m forever grateful because I don’t have to be like a Satorare where people can hear what you’re thinking or grieving for God’s sake!

To be frank enough… I’m quite disappointed right now… Well, it’s more than just disappointed! I’m totally frustrated and can’t even figure it out why some people that once are so nice can now just pass by without even saying “Hello” or at least smile. It really hurts to have someone that you know for so long suddenly acts in such attitude. If I did wrong, just please be frank lah. I don’t mind having your piece of mind as well. Anyway… I’m sure you won’t read this because you don’t really know about blogging. It really kills me to know a person who only looks out only when he/she really needs a help. I don’t mind helping people because I believe that helping others is a blessing. However, I just don’t like the attitude of keeping someone who is so arrogant of his/her own self.

I don’t know what else did he/she tell other people who are close to him/her. I don’t care about it because I know that I didn’t do it. Go on and make up all those stories. Only those who have known me for aeons can judge me – Who are you to judge me? Only my parent tell me what wrong has I done, only my uncles/aunties have the power to share their experiences with me, and only my grandparent know what type of person I am. But it so pity that I know you since birth and you finally break heart into pieces. I love you for who you are. I care for you because you are my sister/brother. It really hurts to lose someone that you love so dearly. It nearly kills my soul! You turned away from me – Like I’m a ghost or invisible or (the worst) a BERLIN WALL! Why? Why? Why?!

You may not understand the feeling that I have now… Or you may not be able to understand how hard for me to stay strong though my heart is broken into pieces. I never have the “REGRETS” to know or even to have you in my life, but I totally feel blessed because life is so fair to teach me that there’s no straight road of life, it always full with thorns and deflections. It’s so easy for me to say that I don’t care about you, but do you think it’s so easy to be such ignorance?

You have finally taught me that life is full of CRUELTY, HYPOCRISY, and LIES! And I’m with this stupidness of mine still waiting for you to TALK to me or at least just say ‘Hello’… Just like the old times. I’ve been trying hard to hold the tears… Holding back all the tears, acting like I’m strong enough… I still love you… I still care for you even though it really hurts deep inside of me.

I’m praying that you’ll be success in your studies, my dear… I know that you’ve been striving hard to get the best. Sorry if I do hurt you indirectly or impromptu… I won’t bother you anymore…

Big Smile Girl from Joe Primus Kayau

BIG SMILE GIRL

What a wonderful sight to see you smile,
Your smile means, a thousand words!
I would go, a thousand miles, just to see your smile again.

Big Smile Girl,
Show me that smile,
Just a simple move, of your lips,
Makes me feel, that i will be just fine.

Don’t ever lose that smile,
You lift people up with that smile!
A lucky man, thats who i am,
To have seen, that wondrous smile.

-Joe Primus Kayau-

p.s. my dear online FB friend, thanks for this nice poem… kalau ko buat lagu, make sure you taruh tu catchy sikit tu melody dia (entah kanapa lah bah sia ni suka butul lagu yang rentak catchy ni). Kuang kuang kuang.. jiwang tu mimang ada lah… Hahahahahaha~ tapi, I’d view this as a friendly poem… at least, I won’t have to lose my smile even if there’s a huge and gigantic problem ahead of me. Thank, Joe!