A Friend is…

It means you believe that a friend can keep your secret safe in her/his place – even if the thing is all about your life and death… The thing that she/he cannot even tell her/his family. Sometimes it can stand for someone that you can depend on, in short, reliable. And then… It can also mean that there’s thing in this world that can let your spirit down and he/she will never leave you… Stay beside you… Keep believing that you’re not wrong, etc. Itulah kalau sia rasa lah…

BUT… As for me and my life, I need a FRIEND who knows where to limit herself even as a friend or bestfriend… Iyalah… Masing-masing ada privacy juga, kan. So, I don’t believe in sharing TOP SECRET with anyone anymore as it can always be used as an INSTRUMENT to stab whenever there’s a slight misunderstanding or dissatisfaction between both of us. I’ve experienced it before… 9 years ago and it still hurts… A friend whom I believe but then crippled and crushed me into dust… I just hate the feeling of being insecure and most of all, betrayal… Well, the best thing to keep a SECRET is either to keep them all in DIARY as what (the late) Aki Kato did when she was struggling with her life… Haiyah! Balik lagi ingat tu 1 Litre of Tears! OR… Whisper a prayer and have a small talk with God… OR…. Share it with the one that you’ve VOWED to live with until the day you die… Well, sepa lagi kalau bukan tu husband or wife… Heheheheh~ A mere friend yang inda ada ikatan yang sah mimang susah siiiikit mo percaya… No offend kio… Correct me if I’m wrong sebab I don’t mind if korang ada idea lain… It’s fun to have someone yang berani mengutarakan his/her own opinions… Kasitau sia if sia cakap silap kalau inda butul tu opinion patut diberi kebebasan… Heheheheh~

I Believe in CHANGE

I’m currently listening to R. Kelly’s I Believe. Last time his most famous song itu I Believe I Can Fly, OST Space Jam tu bah. Ini Mr. I Believe ni sekarang muncul with another ‘I BELIEVE’… I guess after this mesti ada lagi tu ‘I BELIEVE IN MY DREAM’. Wakakakka~ Kidding ah. I’d say that this song is quite uplifting, inspiring, encouraging… Um… What else ah… Sia rasa itu saja lah. Even though it’s actually a tribute song for Barrack Obama (Oh yeah, I love him more than Bush). There’s something about him yang buat me terpikat… No! Not his eyes! His speech… His vision… and of course, his voice! Buahahahhaha~ Nah nah… Start sudah kah sia ini. Heheheheh~ Anyway, I’d say that I BELIEVE THAT WE NEED TO CHANGE, sometimes… Well… Mimanglah most of us are afraid with the ‘CHANGE’… Taboo taboo… It’s because of our feel of insecuritiness. What am I going to change? Hmmm… NEXT SONG, please… I’ll tell you later about that once I found the song yang ngam dengan apa yang sia mo ‘CHANGE’ – If only you’re someone who never missed out what’s going on in my blog… Bukan bilang ko busybody, well… I do appreciate people who visit and read my sot sot sot ramblings here despite of my broken grammar (you can see how weak my English is especially when it comes to VOCABULARY – my konpesion sudah ni! XD)…

I’ve Been Tagged!

Bagus butul tu urang yang tag sia ooo… Hahahaha~ Thanks, pammie.

RULES: ~ Bold the statements that are true for you. Italicize the statements that you wish are true. Leave the fibs alone. Then, tag 5 people to do the same test~

I miss somebody right now.
I love vacation.
I bake a cake.
I do not watch TV these days.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I am married.
I have tried marijuana.
I still love with my ex-boyfriend/girlfriend.
I have been in a threesome.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I have changed mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I curse.
I’m totally smart.
I’ve broken someone’s bones.
I’m paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I am a millionaire.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas. (I wish to be there..LOL )
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn’t survive without Caller ID.
I like the way I look.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent.
I have a lot of friends.
I am currently single.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop. Enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop than eat.
I don’t hate anyone.
I am a pretty good dancer.
I love sex.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I’ve rejected someone before.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I’ve called the cops on a friend before.
I am not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I’m shy around members of the opposite sex.
I have made a move on a friend’s significant other or crush in the past.
I have tried alcohol before.
I own the South Park movie.
I would die for my best friend.
I love to chat (YM/MSN/etc..)
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
I am happy at this moment.
I’m obsessed with girls.
I’m obsessed with boys.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I’ve ever met.
I study for tests most of the time.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever I can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I’m proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald’s restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I went college out of state.
I like sausages.
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people.
I can’t live without black eyeliner.
I don’t know why the hell I just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snake’s slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I’ve written in.
I can’t stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I wear a toe ring.
I can’t stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I feel sad sometimes.
I’m an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I am an adrenaline junkie.
I love being happy.
I am on diet.

Now i’m tagging….

1. mark mojitoh
2. novie benggon
3. mamaii
4. lydbytes
5. bobby

Novie’s Co-Ko-Lat Kek

Last time I wrote about my heavenly-and-sacred day at The Yogi Tree, right? Heheheh~ My cuzzie Novie is working there as a pastry chef. I still miss those Volcano Chocs, Orange Pie, Yoghurt, etc… Everything’s so YUMMY and I ended up spending nearly RM100… Nah! As long as I can have healthy food! Less sugar lagi tu! So, this time kan… She’s so damn jahat! How could she post all the photos! I mean CHOCOLATE CAKES! Kurang asam! I’m going to book HER now sebab HER CAKES ALWAYS MAKE ME MOUTH-WATERING-and-LIQUID-FLOWING (little little kiddies, don’t copy my English… Your English teacher sure gonna rutan you.)

p.s. Novie, ko sia book!!!! For my birthday, engagement, wedding, pregnancy party, children’s birthday, etc. Kalau ko inda balik, jagalah ko… Sia inda mengaku ko lagi kajen sia! Muahahah~ (Kids, don’t tiru this at home…)

Molten Lava Chocolate

Novie has made me really really really really TIGIRAN… I don’t care lah if she’s a human being… She has made me wanna TALAN HIDUP HIDUP. Adakah YM YM saja turus bilang Molten Lava Chocolcate Cake! Cis cis cis! Inda apa… Nanti tiba-tiba sia turus fly pigi KL, baru dia tau… Inda pa… I think I’ve found the recipe over the Internet and I’ll bake one this week or probably next week as I need to sort of things lu by this week. She asked me apa flavour yang paling sia suka… Well… I rank my favourite flavours as follows:

#1 – Yam (Kajen-kajen sia bilang ini urang tua punya flavour. Bagi sia, yam lah yang paling inda manis and that’s why mostly orang tua suka makan. Anyway, banyak khasiat bah Yam.)

#2 – Chocolate (Ngam untuk kalau time kesejukan and rasa mo kasi tambah berat badan. I’d prefer DARK CHOCOLATE sebab it’s good for skin… Anti-oxidant bah!)

#3 – Durian (I’m a Durian craze but due to health reason… I need to limit and if possible to restrain myself from indulging with the flavour of Durian. Kasian kan?)

#4 – Vanilla (I’d stick to unsweetened vanilla… Yang inda banyak gula… In other words, inda terlampau manis. Kalau inda, I’ll end up paning-paning lalat…)

#5 – Lemon (Sadap bah ni especially after a friend purposedly bagi sia makan Lemon Pie the other day… SADAP!)

OK… Me sambung lagi chatting sama si Novie… Click her name for more… Itu gambar si Novie tu.

p.s. who is Novie? She’s actually my kajen… If you happened to know DENGKOS, then itulah juga si dengkos punya kajen. The world is really a small place to live after all!

Yicks!!!!

My class starts sudah today!!! Yicks!!!! Corporate Strategy… I wonder what barang is dat… Eeeee~ Malas malas malas malas Malas malas malas malas Malas malas malas malas Malas malas malas malas Malas malas malas malas Malas malas malas malas Malas malas malas malas Malas malas malas malas Malas malas malas malas Malas malas malas malas Malas malas malas malas Malas malas malas malas Malas malas malas malas Malas malas malas malas Malas malas malas malas Malas malas malas malas Malas malas malas malas Malas malas malas malas Malas malas malas malas Malas malas malas malas Malas malas malas malas Malas malas malas malas…

I'm a Prisoner of Love

I’ve always been a fan of Japanese, Korean and Taiwanese music (oh, and drama also!). That means my style also has the influence from these 3 countries… Muahahahahah~ Thinking of having my hair dyed lagi ni tapi macam rasa sayang juga sebab I’m planning of having it BLONDE! Muahahahaha~ Just like Ayumi Hamasaki, and then pakai tu contact lens yang bulih kasi basar lagi mata (macamlah mata sia ni inda cukup basar).

Prisoner of Love (Utada Hikaru)

I’m a prisoner of love
Prisoner of love
Just a prisoner of love
I’m just a prisoner of love
A prisoner of love

heiki na kao de uso wo tsuite
waratte iyake ga sashite
raku bakari shiyou to shite ita

naimononedari buru-su
mina yasuragi wo motomete iru
michitariteru noni ubaiau
ai no kage wo otte iru

taikutsu na mainichi ga kyuu ni kagayakidashita
anata ga arawareta ano hi kara
kodoku demo tsurakutemo heiki da to omoeta
I’m just a prisoner of love
Just a prisoner of love

Prisoner of love
Prisoner of love
I’m a prisoner of love

yameru toki mo sukoyaka naru toki mo
arashi no hi mo hare no hi mo tomo ni ayumou

I’m gonna tell you the truth
hitoshirezu tsurai michi wo erabu
watashi wo ouen shite kureru
anata dake wo tomo to yobu

tsuyogari ya yokubari ga muimi ni narimashita
anata ni ai sareta ano hi kara
jiyuu demo yoyuu demo hitori ja munashii wa
I’m just a prisoner of love
Just a prisoner of love

Oh mou sukoshi da yo
Don’t you give up
Oh misutenai zettai ni

zankoku na genjitsu ga futari wo hikisakeba
yori issou tsuyoku hikareau
ikura demo ikura demo ganbareru ki ga shita
I’m just a prisoner of love
Just a prisoner of love

arifureta nichijou ga kyuu ni kagayakidashita
kokoro wo ubawareta ano hi kara
kodoku demo tsurakutemo heiki da to omoeta
I’m just a prisoner of love
Just a prisoner of love

I’m a prisoner of love
Prisoner of love
Prisoner of love
I’m just a prisoner of love
I’m a prisoner of love

Stay with me, stay with me
My baby, say you love me
Stay with me, stay with me
hitori ni sasenai

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I’m a prisoner of love
Prisoner of love
Just a prisoner of love
I’m just a prisoner of love
A prisoner of love

With an indifferent face you tell a lie
Laughing until you feel sick
“Let’s have nothing but fun” you said

Feeling blue over desiring the impossible
Everyone is seeking tranquility
You’re struggling, but you’ve had enough
Now you’re chasing after a shadow of love

Since the day you appeared
My dull “everyday”s have begun to shine
Now I‘m able to think, “Feeling loneliness, being in pain – that’s not so bad”
I’m just a prisoner of love
Just a prisoner of love

Through painful times and healthy times,
Stormy days and sunny days, let’s walk on together

I’m gonna tell you the truth
I chose an unforeseeable painful path
and you came to support me
You’re the only one I can call a friend

Fake displays of strength and avarice have become meaningless
I’ve been in love with you since that day
When I’m free, with time to spare, there’s no life in being alone
I’m just a prisoner of love
Just a prisoner of love

Oh… Just a little more
Don’t you give up
Oh don’t ever abandon me
If the cruelty of reality tries to tear us apart
We’ll be drawn more closely to one another
Somehow, somehow, I have a feeling we’ll be able to stand firm
I’m just a prisoner of love
Just a prisoner of love

Every day banalities quickly begin to shine brilliantly
You stole my heart that day
Loneliness and pain, I thought I could deal with
I’m just a prisoner of love
Just a prisoner of love

Stay with me, stay with me
My baby, say you love me
Stay with me, stay with me
Don’t leave me alone again

Translation credits to Arisan.

p.s. Oh ya… This song is actually taken from Last Friends’ J-Dorama (Japanese Drama)… And I’m so glad that my Nishikado Ryo pula ada dalam tu Last Friends… Gonna download or watch it online… Heheheheh~ Sexy eyes… Sexy eyes… Sexy eyes…