When I Cry

When I Cry
Gaither Vocal Band

Makin’ a list of all of the good things You’ve done for me
Lord, I’ve never been one to complain
But right now I’m lost and I can’t find my way
My world’s come apart and it’s breakin’ my heart
But it helps to know Your heart is breakin’ too

When I cry, You cry
When I hurt, You hurt
When I’ve lost someone
It takes a piece of You, too
And when I fall on my face
You fill me with grace
‘Cause nothin’ breaks Your heart
Or tears You apart
Like when I cry

Alone in the dark, face in my hands, crying out to You
Lord, there’s never been a time in my life
There’s so much at stake, there’s so much to lose
But I trust it to You
You’ll bring me through
And it helps me to know that I’m not alone

When I cry, You cry
When I hurt, You hurt
When I’ve lost someone
It takes a piece of You, too
And when I fall on my face
You fill me with grace
‘Cause nothin’ breaks Your heart
Or tears You apart
Like when I cry

You’re the one who calmed the raging sea
You’re the one who made the blind to see
You looked through all of heaven and eternity
And through it all you saw me…

When I cry, You cry
When I hurt, You hurt
And when I’ve lost someone it takes a piece of You, too
When I fall on my face, You fill me with grace
Nothing breaks your heart, or tears you apart
Like when I cry

p.s. I believe HE is there even though I’ve been hurt… I can feel HE is there and I know I’m on the right path because HE always leads me and guide me all the way… HE answers my prayers all the times… I know HE is here with me… At the moment… When I Cry… *and of course when I’m HAPPY also!*

Buat Kerja…

Sia lupa sudah ni kerja kalau bukan si Mark kasi ingat sia balik… So, sia bagi masa dalam masa 1 jam untuk kasi siap… FYI, sia baru bangun and turus mengadap sama MAC sia dengan mata berbilas… Yang penting, kerja siap dulu… Heheheheheh~ Then, sia mo pigi buat transmogrification. Nanti sia bagitau sama yang ada dalam list sia saja… Hehehehehehehe~ Biarlah korang guessing right now… I leave you all with question marks!

p.s. Ada urang bilang sia tambirang buat kerja sebab sia di rumah saja kalau siang hari dan nampak relax saja. Hello… Kalau bilang sia tambirang… Jadi, apakah ini design dalam newspaper? Silap-silap ko pigang kamera pun indatau, shutter speed mo set pun indatau, apa lagi mo pigi pigang Illustrator (ini kali ko indatau apa benda lagi ni). Sorry for my two-fisted tapi inilah kenyataan hidup dan bukan sibuk mo mengumpat saja di belakang orang… At least, sia happy sebab ko ingat sia dalam otak ko. Terima kasih banyak-banyak. Keep on serving with more juicy stories, I’m sure lama-lama urang pun meluat sama cerita ‘youw’. Sia inda sabar mo dingar versi cerita seterusnya dari ko…God Bless You… Aku tau bah ko sepa, jan ko susah sebab sia inda benci ko tapi sia benci itu attitude ko. Hakhakhakahak! Mintak maaf, dbos-fm. Aku menggunakan lagi itu gambar dari tampat ko… Muahahahahahaha~ Inda ada masa mo scan bah sebab sibuk…

Life is Hard

Life Is Hard (God Is Good) – Pam Thum

You turn the key
Then close the door behind you
Drop your bags on the floor
You reach for the light
But there’s darkness deep inside
And you can’t take it anymore

‘Cause sometimes living takes the life out of you
And sometimes living is all you can do

Life is hard, the world is cold
We’re barely young and then we’re old
But every falling tear is always understood
Yes, life is hard, but God is good

You start to cry
‘Cause you’ve been strong for so long
And that’s not how you feel
You try to pray
But there’s nothing left to say
So you just quietly kneel

In the silence of all that you face
God will give you His mercy and grace

Jesus never said
It was an easy road to travel
He only said that you would never be alone
So when your last thread of hope
Begins to come unraveled
Don’t give up, He walks beside you
On this journey home and He knows

Life is hard, the world is cold
We’re barely young and then we’re old
But every falling tear is always understood
Yes, life is hard, but God is good

p.s. This song really makes me wanna cry out loud! There are some of my friends who told me about what these some people are talking behind me. Thanks for telling me the names of those persons. At least I know that they are not whom they are (two-faces and face saving) and I know they will read this (that’s why I deliberately post this lyrics).

Devil In Details

A young and nervous bride planning her wedding was increasingly terrified about her upcoming marriage. To calm her nerves, she decided to have a Bible verse which had always brought her comfort (1 John 4:18, “There is no fear in love; for perfect love casts out fear”) engraved on her wedding cake. So she called the caterer and all arrangements were made.

About a week before the wedding, she received a call from the catering company. “Is this really the verse you want on your cake?” they asked. Yes, she confirmed, it was the one she wanted, and after a few more questions they said they would decorate the cake as requested.

The wedding day came, and everything was beautiful…until the reception, when the bride walked in to find the cake emblazoned with John 4:18 (Not 1 John 4:18) : “For you have had five husbands, and the one whom you now have is not your husband.”

Music Survey

The Rules:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question. NO CHEATING!
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense.
4. Comment on it.
5. Tag 5 people.

1) How are you feeling today?

You’re Not Sorry (Taylor Swift) – Hahahahaha! Kenapalah I have this song! I’m in the monotonous life right now and how I wish I can have that hectic life very very soon as I don’t quite like to be someone who’s left behind. Yalah, semua urang sibuk kerja sendiri and I don’t have something to do dan paling teruk, mengacau orang saja. My life is so BORING! Huahuahuahua! Opps! I have to answer this question based on the title kan? Ya, I dislike the attitude of saying that he/she is sorry tapi pada hakikatnya he/she does not mean it. Inda sincere dan hanya untuk mau rip the benefits lepas tu kasi tinggal bila inda berguna sudah. Kuangkuangkuang! Tinguk dulu bah sepa main game. Kalau belum pernah main game, better berlatih guna itu PS3 or Wii!!!! Muahahahah~

2) Will you get far in life?

Dear Life (Chantal Kreviazuk) – I’m over playin’ with your massive ego… Still I keep on holding on for dear life… Muahahahah! Entahlah… Aku pun enggak tau sih…

3) What’s your best friend’s theme song?

Kill The Remix (The Masochist) – Hahahahah~ Never asked what kind of song that she’s into… Hahahahah~

4) What is the story of your life?

Far Away (Chantal Kreviazuk) – Past, Present or Future? Hahaha~ I have a life which is full with thorns and thistles… Tapi, if only you can understand this “Make me believe in you. Honestly for real, one thing true. Take me in, in your arms. Wandering alone seems so far. Let me know that you made it as far as forever, Let me know that you hear when I cry if you can…  You’re far away from me. You’re far away from me. You’re far away from me. Come a little closer. Just a little, oh…”

5) What was high school like?

Smack Into You (John McLaughlin) - Apa ni??? Lagu sintan tapi the question is about my high school… Apa sia mo jawab? Inda ada relations pun… Inverse relationship.. How about sia bilang I had A FEW *silent* admirers and some boyfriends? Paling lama punya kisah sintan pun mo dakat 3 tahun then we’re done sebab badan inda sexy! Muahahahah~ I wonder if dia masih ingat lagi itu statement dia yang bilang macam kayu balak saja sia ni… That’s the funniest statement yang sia inda dapat lupa sampai sekarang and nanti sia mo kasi main-main dia tu. Well, kasi jadi bahan lawak sajalah bah… Kada kotogod, biasalah kan mo kasi relate sama itu sintan sama high school… Kalau bilang cerita itu high school – Paling baguslah sia tondila bila Mr. Lee Wah Ban angkat tu sijil tinggi-tinggi sampai sia pusing kepala pigi kanan (which that time itu cikgu-cikgu semua duduk di sana… During assembly juga) and sia tondila (tondila sama cikgu-cikgu)! Dalam hati sia bilang, “Gosh! Embarrassing!!!!!” Pasal skulah, I had fun there for 5 years – Camping, Abseiling, Counseling (inda payah cakap), Kerja Amal, etc… Paling sia rasa susah mo lupa gara-gara kamirang mo study untuk PMR saja dan terlampau rajin… Siorang baca buku rujukan bila time tu untuk baca buku cerita. Turus kena suruh lari round padang sekolah 2 rounds. Itu boyfriend dari tingkat 3 di atas sana punyalah katawa diorang semua. Bikin malu! Friends? Ramai… Di sanalah sia jumpa diorang Zodee yang jajal (sekarang jadi cikgu sudah lor), Harry, Rosemary, Julie, Bivient, Livia, Surianee, John Jeffry (sekarang makeup artist wor), etc. Belum lagi sia jumpa kawan sia yang jadi Datuk. Yang ada pun bakal mo jadi Dr sudah sebab mo habis sudah PhD dia. Woah! *full stop and I know mimang ada keluar tajuk*

6) How can you get ahead with life?

Breathe (Lee Carr) – Bernafas lah bah… Muahahahaha! Bagus butul jawapan untuk ini… Hahahahah~

7) What’s the best thing about your friends?

Stuck With Each Other (Shontelle) – Inda payahlah sia explain… Stuck with each other saja… Heheheheheh~

8) Describe your grandparents.

Seventeen Forever (Metro Station) – Huahuahuahuahuahuahuahua! Lawak!!!!! Kalaulah butul-butul gini… Hahahahhhaha~

9) How’s your life going?

Feels Like Home (Chantal Kreviazuk) – Selalu saja di rumah… So, you can expect how my life’s going on… BBTV – Bangun, Belajar, Tidur, Voiceless… Muahahahahah!

10) What will be played at my funeral?

I Believe (R. Kelly) – Palis palis! Don’t ever play this song lah.. Nanti turus sia bangun balik wor… Muahahahah~ Paling Palis… Bulihkah ini soalan jangan ada pasal funeral… Mulau…

11) Will you have a happy life?

Time (Chantal Kreviazuk) – Time will tell whether I will lead a happy life or not… It all depends on my decision because my own happiness is in my hand now… I hold my own future and of course I ask God to help me…

12) What do your friends really think of you?

Surrounded (Chantal Kreviazuk) – Entahlah… Yang sia tau sia ada ramai kawan… I’m grateful to have them and of course they are more precious than a thousand diamonds.

13) Do people secretly lust after you?

Hallelujah (Alexandra Burke) - Uii… Apa ni ooo? Mulau! I don’t know about those secret lusts… Biarlah diorang… Apa sia paduli… Buat bodoh saja bah… Hahahhah~

14) How can you make yourself happy?

Born To Love You Forever (Charice) – Muahahahah! I guess this title said it all…

15) Will you ever have children?

Come Back To Me (Utada Hikaru) - Come back to me kan? Well, I wish to have children juga gia… Kalau ramai pun bagus juga sebab I don’t want them to feel the loneliness of ‘just-the-2-of-us’… Punya sadis tu! Will I ever have children… Itu sia serahkan sama God… I may only pray to Him… Heheheheh~

16) What song would you strip to?

Fuck You Bitch (DJ Verstarker) - Sot sot sot!

17) What does your mom think of you?

Melbourne Shuffle (Internal External) – My mom ingat sia punya life macam shuffle… Hahahahah~ I think so… Hahahahahah~

18) What is your deep, dark secret?

Prisoner of Love (Utada Hikaru) - Korang carilah tu lirik lagu dia… Itulah dark secret sia… Hahahahahahah~

19) What is your enemy’s theme song?

Just Do It (Lisa “Left Eye” Lopes) – Maybelah ini lagu theme song untuk diorang… Hahahahaha~ I don’t know and who cares… Tiada urang mo cari pasal sama diorang bah atau mo bermusuh kalau bukan diorang sendiri mula dan saja mo cari pasal.

20) What’s your personality like?

Julia (Chantal Kreviazuk) – Korang cari itu lirik dia… Gitu laitu kalau korang bulih faham metaphore dia… Heheheheh~

21) What will be played at your wedding?

If I Were A Boy (Beyonce feat. R. Kelly) – Aku inda mau ini lagu kena kasi main kalau sia kahwin… Sia mau lagu Dusun kena kasi nyanyi… Kalau inda, itu si LUGU sia import dari Jipun untuk menyanyi Tompu Kirik Kirik… Hahahahah~ (Ya, sia faham tu ada urang yang minat butul mo baca ini pasal KAHWIN… Sia tau ko membaca dalam diam tu, Tomm! Sia tunggu si ko dulu kawin then si Kidit then yang lain-lain tu… Sia kasi balakang-balakang sebab sia punya kangkarud si ND300 suka kena pigang-pigang saja… Wei, Nikon… Nikon!)

Now… I’m tagging:

1. daphne santor
2. wel
3. pammie joeh
4. olumis
5. mamaii

Mind Your Own Life Lah…

I may sound like too big for one’s britches but that is your own problem because you judge me without even knowing me properly and consider yourself have been in my shoes after knowing or chatting with me just for a few months? Hello, I’m a two-fisted person who would blast anytime in real-time(eh? bukan PS3 term kaitu?). Hahaha~ At least, I don’t go for two-faces who opt for face-saving and then backstabbing others – You said I’m the one who backstabbed you? Hello… Who blurted out everything at the first place? I know there are some people out there who are talking behind me. Thanks, at least I’m in every corner of your mind 24/7, 12 months a year, 365 days a year. I LOVE YOU for mentioning my name to other people because you make my life even GLAMOROUS. Don’t blame them for their inability to keep their mouth shut, anyway. Moreover, I’m so sorry for neglecting or ignoring you that you feel like I’m the most  *blur turus indatau apa mo tulis* as I don’t have time to entertain those who can’t even keep their body from minding others’ life. Keep on mentioning my name and this time make sure you tell more saucy gossips about me kio so bila sampai di telinga sia, I can  burst into laugh! (^_^)V Well, I can  persistently and patiently remain silent now but once I pressed the STARTbutton, then you will surely be a victim of my devil’s advocates? It sure going to be really really fun to play with! I’ll play until it’s CHECKMATE and GAME OVER!

Kakakakkakak~ If you’re asking who… Sepa yang terasa pedas, dialah tu… Kanapa? Ko terasa padas kah? Wahahahahahha~ Kidding! Kada kotogod kio… Kurudot moti muka… Inda bagus untuk kesihatan… Kikikikikikiki~ Anyway, thanks for reading this post… You must be very curious ni kan sebab itu tajuk pun sudah cukup untuk buat ko turus ingat sia ni direly in bad mood kan? Muahahaha~ Relaxlah bah, kawang… Have a nice day, anyway… I should start to compose a warning letter kali ni… Muahahhah~ Sot sot sot… *Sia ulang sekali lagi supaya inda ada urang tanya lagi, JANGAN PERCAYA 100% DENGAN APA YANG SIA TULIS DI SINI SEBAB INDA SEMUANYA BUTUL…* Muahahaha~ Bah Bah… Ali Bah Bah!

*another confession kaini? Kijap… Mau cari lu tu tanduk kambing emmmmbek… Muahahahahah!*

Maka dengan itu, saya dengan bangganya mengumumkan bahawa theory saya selama ini diterima pakai oleh saya sendiri…”YOU CAN NEVER ZIPPED THE MOUTH OF OTHER PEOPLE BECAUSE YOU CAN NEVER HAVE THE ABILITY TO CONTROL THEIR MIND“

p.s. I know some my friends are well aware of this words… This is how I assume people as… Well… Only some of them…

Demanding for Updates on Ji’s Rocky!

I wonder apa macam sudah sama ini kereta kawan sia… HE HASN’T UPDATE SAMA SIA PASAL INI BABY DIA! Eeeeee… He’s way toooooo busy lah tu with his newly modified baby and maybe his ITIK Productions. I should blame him sebab gara-gara dialah yang selalu cerita pasal 4WD sama sia sampai sia pun rasa macam this thing is interesting (Sia rasa dia indatau tu yang sia minat benda yang sia rasa interesting and baru)! Kalau sia kasitau dia pun kan, mesti jawapan dia begini… “HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!” Ya, katawa saja dia tau tu… Gara-gara dia jugalah yang sampai sia jump to NIKON. I was with CANON before this walaupun my other friends like GOGDS (Ya, ko pernah kasi taya-taya sia tu kamera NIKON ko) selalu totoro sia with their NIKON. Is ‘He’ my boyfriend? Jadi, sebelum urang menanya soalan bonus via my YM or SMS or FB or FS… Sia awal-awal jawab lah kio… Satu kali saja sia tulis… HE IS NOT MY BOYFRIEND. Pull Stop (bukan full stop). Wahhahaah~ My current boyfriend is Nikon D300… You know what does it mean if I’m with a gadget kan? Muahahaha! The guy who owns the rocky-rugger baby is actually a friend of mine yang sia jumpa during camping. He’s a nice guy when it comes to CERITA… Cerita apa? Cerita pasal KERETA, BUSINESS, DUIT, THAILAND, FRIENDS, dan KAMERA. Dari mula-mula kenal dia mesti topik dia itu KERETA especially tu 4×4… Mula-mula mimang BORING dingar tapi lama-lama macam INTERESTING especially when dia start kasi tinguk the process itu kereta dia kena modified. My only interest is on LEXUS, yang lain sia buang pigi tandas (kunun). But now… Dia kasi tinggal sia without ANY UPDATES pada BABY ROCKY dia! Inda apa… Nanti sia tagih dari dia juga tu… I know he’s way too busy right now… Urang tua bilang inda bagus kacau urang time sibuk-sibuk… Inda ada adat… Heheheheh~