Lack of Passion is Fatal

1. Darling, the world’s not really against you. The only thing that’s against you is yourself.
2. There is something beautiful about all scars, whatever nature. A scar means the hurt is over, the wound is closed and healed, done with.
3. You are the finest, loveliest, tenderest, and most beautiful person I have ever known-and even that is an understatement. -F. Scott Fitzgerald
4. Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your life…you give them a piece of you. They didn’t ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness so simple a phrase like “maybe we should be friends” turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.
5. I feel like everything in my life has led me to you. My choices, my heartbreaks, my regrets. Everything. And when we’re together, my past seems worth it. Because if I had done one thing differently, I might have never met you.  
6. It’s crazy because I don’t even know when you became so important to me. It’s like watching a snowstorm. You see the flakes falling, but you don’t realize how they’re adding up. Then suddenly, your whole lawn is covered. All these little things have added up, and you’re my snowstorm.
7. God causes things to happen at exactly the right time! Your job is not to figure out when, but to make up your mind that you won’t give up until you cross the finish line and are living in the radical, outrageous blessings of God! The more you trust Jesus and keep your eyes focused on Him, the more life you’ll have. Trusting God brings life. Believing brings rest. So stop trying to figure everything out, and let God be God  in your life. 
8. You know when sometimes you meet someone so beautiful and then you actually talk to them and five minutes later, they’re as dull as a brick? Then there’s other people, when you meet them, you think, “Not bad. They’re okay.” And then you get to know them and their face just sort of becomes them. Like their personality’s written all over it.And they just turn into something so beautiful. 
9. Our willingness to wait reveals the value we place on the object we’re waiting for.
10. Never lose an opportunity of seeing anything beautiful, for beauty is God’s handwriting.
11. Today, forget your past, forgive yourself, and begin again.
12. A heartbreak is a blessing from God. It’s just His way of letting you realize He saved you from the wrong one. 
13. Someone once told me that some of us are actually afraid of the dark; we’re scared of what it conceals from us. We’re afraid of having something with the potential to hurt us standing right before our eyes and not registering it as a threat. People can be like that too.
14. Sometimes, I think that the stars  are actually a huge connect-the-dot puzzle, and if we could only find the right pattern in which to connect them, then maybe we could figure out what they’re trying to tell us. And I think that there is a different pattern for every living person, every person that has ever lived, and every person that will ever live. So in a way, we’re all written into the night sky. And we gaze up at the sky, lying beneath our fears and dreams, and futures, and if we could find the right pattern, we might be able to know where we’re supposed to be. But the night sky is bigger than I can even begin to grasp, so I lay down on the damp summer grass amidst laughter and sips of wine, and I trace my finger along the brightest stars I can find, and I smile. The stars can keep the burden of knowing where it is that I will end up, because I am happy with where I am right now. When they twinkle, I think they’re winking at me, like they know something I don’t know, but I don’t mind. Sometimes, I like being in the dark, and right now, I don’t mind at all.
15. God is fully aware that you and I are not perfect; let me add, God is also fully aware that the people you think are perfect are not.
16. Sometimes, we are so busy chasing the sunlight, that we forget that the darkness is chasing us. 
17. You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book. (Psalm 56:8, NLT)
18. I am and always will be- the optimist. The hoper of far-flung hopes. The dreamer of improbable dreams. 
19. Dear best friend, I love you more daily. I wish you could see yourself the way I see you and I wish you could love yourself the way I love you. And above all, I wish your life is everything you deserve because, in my opinion, you deserve the world. I will stand by you forever. My heart will always belong to you.
20. How do you look at someone you love and tell yourself it’s time to walk away?
21. Be contented. Yes, there are people greater than her. There are people who are more attractive, more intelligent, more caring, and more fortunate. That’s life- full of temptations. But don’t be deceived by those things. Because didn’t you ever realize that there are people who are also greater than you? Yet she chose you.  
22. You are loved. You are valuable. You are crafted with beauty and purpose. I treasure you and this world needs you. There is no one like you. You don’t need to look like the rest, or talk like the rest, or be like the rest. There is no truth in the lie that you don’t mater. The world needs you as you are. You are loved and you were put here for a reason. You were not an accident. You are not a mistake. 
23. Dear future husband,  I hope our love is the kind that I don’t even have to think about. I hope I never have to convince myself to love any certain part of you because I hope it all comes naturally. I hope our love is the kind that is quiet on the outside, but loud on the inside. I want to love you like the space between lightning and thunder- electrified and alive, but silent and knowing. And I want you to love me like clouds love the rain. You’re going to have to let me go on my own sometimes, but I will always come back and we will always be two parts of the same thing. 

Bowling in My Mind

I don't know what to write here... But, sia kasi masuk apa-apa saja which I think fit and Ok lah kie... Maybe it's about my research on Unduk Ngadau - The topic which I tersilap picked sebab tidak mahu drag kerja... or anything yang sia rasa perlu lah kie... Maybe my love life or... etc...

Fotopages

Kerja boring untuk hari minggu, menunggu bulan 5 habis dengan tiada penyesalan. So, jom korang pigi sini http://sumandakdotcom.fotopages.com/ . Ada gambar unduk ngadau bah. Sia tau korang suka tinguk gambar unduk ngadau... :p

KOTOBIAN TADAU TAGAYO DO KAAMATAN

ikan koruk ikan turongou,

sudah kogoruk masih korongou,

sumulok sinsilog koruba sunsulit,

kada kosonsog moginum ginsom korilit.

"KOTOBIAN TADAU TAGAYO DO KAAMATAN"

Renovation

My house is under renovation sekarang ni, just because my uncle and his family are coming back from USA after more than 5 years inda balik-balik sebab mau dapat status PR and Green Light dari tu USA Government. Mimang susah mo live in USA termasuk keluar dari USA kalau masih lagi ada urusan di sana. Even though mimang sana FREE TO VOICE, FREE TO HAVE, FREE TO MAKE... Lebih-lebih lagi incident (or may I call it as ACCIDENT?) Osama lah, Bush lah, September 11 lah... etc. Mimang mess betul bah.... Yang sia kasehan, itu grandparents sia - They have waited for more than 5 years tunggu their only successful son balik dari USA. Yes, sikarang diorang punya umur (I mean tu grandparents sia) sudah menjangkau 70 years old. Next month saja siorang semua mo buat Family Reunion cum Kaamatan for Sabilah M Benggon's family. Surprise dari sia pula, walaupun inda seberapa... Sia mo bagi KEK BAAASAAAR sama diorang. Itu saja sia bulih bagi sekarang guna duit yang manang time ikut unduk ngadau... Kwak Kwak Kwak...

Sia bangun saja pagi ni, sia try mo ingat balik apa sia mimpi tadi... Sia termimpi bilik sia. Eheks... Sebab sekarang bilik sia kasi warna purple (warna yang dihalang oleh parents sia tapi last-last diorang admit sia pandai cari warna). At first, diorang mo suruh sia pilih warna pink, duh... Bosan sudah sia warna pink selepas ditinggalkan X-Breakfast sia duuuulu... Opppsss... Tersasul dan terpisung sikit, balik pasal mimpi sia. Sia termimpi yang sia pigi lukis bunga di dinding bilik sia. Hehehehe... And sia mo buat sama tu dinding bilik sia nanti. Sia apply semua benda yang sia study time di SM Shan Tao duuulu... Sikit-sikit pigi buat kerja lukis dinding, 2 kali sia lukis dinding time di High School dulu...

But now... I still have to find costume TOBILUNG KOTA MARUDU dulu for my kazen... :( Desperate ni sekarang mencari... UUUWAAAAAAHHHH... Help me Help Me...

This is Kaamatan

Talking about kaamatan - Harvest Festival. Mimang syok. But this year punya kaamatan is a bit dull - Inda banyak publisiti, news, pics, etc. Paling banyak cerita pasal accident during kaamatan. Na'uk punya pasal, tidur di tengah jalan raya punya pasal, mati bergaduh punya pasal, etc.

Kaamatan yang sekarang is no longer kaamatan yang meriah macam dulu-dulu, Kaamatan dari time Berjaya lagi... I've heard lots of stories from my grandpa pasal kaamatan diorang. Simple tapi meriah. Even di Kg. Pulutan, Menggatal saja - For God's sake - sudah 5 tahun tiada kaamatan, untuk apa kasi repair itu balairaya tapi no kaamatan? What kind of tutok ni AJK buduh ada? Sekadar pegang kunci dewan and ban urang kampung sendiri guna dewan? Hello? Itu dewan moyang ko punya kah?

Sia pun tidak berapa suka with penganjuran kaamatan kawasan N.12 Inanam. Hello, be fair a bit. Yang sia inda puas hati dari dulu pasa committees misti mau dari Inanam sajakah? Bukan sia mo anti-Inanam, tapi the way diorang conduct. Tau minta sponsor saja but tiada pun apa-apa untuk urang Telipok and Menggatal. Tau minta tagih undi dari siorang saja tapi jalan raya still berhabuk. Why bias? Nasib juga siorang pintar, we have observed segala-galanya. So, bila time mengundi lagi nanti, we won't choose you anymore. Banyak suara, tapi peluh sikit.

Mungkin I'm still young hijau belum matang tapi sia sudah observe ni politik sabah since sia masih lagi 12 years old. Semua buku politik sudah sia baca. Darilah buku Mandat Ketiga sampailah karya dari si Radin Malleh. Yes! Politics mimang sudah terpahat di kepala utak sia. Permainan kutur dan bersih sia tau sudah. Secara kesimpulannya di sini, demand dari rakyat tidak pernah cukup. Seorang ahli politik must be brave, brilliant, rich and humble - Kenapa rich? Elaun jadi YB bukannya cukup untuk tampung permintaan, so untuk menjadi YB, one kena rich atau ada pendapatan tetap supaya dapat tolong rakyat dan bukan sekadar beli Ninja King tunjuk sama rakyat. Sia prefer YB dari Penampang...

Kaamatan oh Kaamatan.... Where have all the Kaamatans gone long time passing?

5 JARI BERDOA

1) IBU JARI 

Ibu jari adalah jari yg terdekat dengan kita. Maka fokuskan doa kita kepada orang2 yang terdekat di hati dan sisi kita. Ibubapa, saudara-mara, teman baik, bf/gf etc...doakan mereka. Mereka adalah golongan manusia yang pasti mudah diingati oleh anda. 

2) JARI TELUNJUK 

Jari telunjuk membawa perlambangan doa bagi org2 yg telah mengajar kita, menyembuhkan kita, mendidik dan memulihkan kita. Mereka ini termasuklah golongan gembala, doktor yg merawat kita, pensyarah/guru-guru etc...sesiapa pun yg pernah hadir sebagai org yg telah membimbing kita. Sentiasa ingati bahawa hikmat dan kebijaksanaan yg mereka telah berikan kepada kita adalah berkat daripada TUHAN, mereka adalah saluran berkat yg TUHAN telah gunakan untuk menyembuhkan/ membimbing kita. 

3) JARI TENGAH 

JAri tengah dalam senarai jari-jari saya dan saudara adalah merupakan jari tertinggi bukan? Nah kali ini berdoalah bagi para pemimpin. Golongan Pemimpin ini termasuklah kepimpinan tertinggi negara, pemimpin gereja dan sesiapa pun yg saudara/i lihat sebagai pemimpin dalam hidupmu. Golongan kita bertanggungjawab membentuk polisi dan hal-hal pentadbiran yang mempengaruhi kehidupan kita. Mereka memerlukan pimpinan ALLAH kita untuk hikmat dan kekuatan. 

4) JARI MANIS 

Menurut para guru piano, jari manismu adalah jari yg terlemah dalam senarai jari kita. JAri ini mengingatkan saya dan saudara untuk berdoa bagi mereka yg lemah, dalam pergumulan berat, sakit atau dlm kesusahan. Pikullah beban mereka dalam doa kita. Nescaya kita telah memainkan peranan dalam menjadi saluran kasihNya. 

5) JARI KELINGKING 

Aha! Jari kelingking adalah jari terkecil dalam senarai jari kita. JAri ini melambangkan diri kita sendiri secara peribadi dalam rangkaian perhubungan kita dengan TUHAN dan sesama manusia. Alkitab mengajar kita bahawa "..yang terkecil di antara kamu akan menjadi yang terbesar..." Makanya jari ini mengingatkan saya dan saudara untuk berdoa bagi diri kita sendiri secara peribadi tentang keperluanmu, pergumulanmu dan masalah serta visi hidupmu di hadapan takhtaNya yang kudus! 

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