Life is Hard

Life Is Hard (God Is Good) – Pam Thum

You turn the key
Then close the door behind you
Drop your bags on the floor
You reach for the light
But there’s darkness deep inside
And you can’t take it anymore

‘Cause sometimes living takes the life out of you
And sometimes living is all you can do

Life is hard, the world is cold
We’re barely young and then we’re old
But every falling tear is always understood
Yes, life is hard, but God is good

You start to cry
‘Cause you’ve been strong for so long
And that’s not how you feel
You try to pray
But there’s nothing left to say
So you just quietly kneel

In the silence of all that you face
God will give you His mercy and grace

Jesus never said
It was an easy road to travel
He only said that you would never be alone
So when your last thread of hope
Begins to come unraveled
Don’t give up, He walks beside you
On this journey home and He knows

Life is hard, the world is cold
We’re barely young and then we’re old
But every falling tear is always understood
Yes, life is hard, but God is good

p.s. This song really makes me wanna cry out loud! There are some of my friends who told me about what these some people are talking behind me. Thanks for telling me the names of those persons. At least I know that they are not whom they are (two-faces and face saving) and I know they will read this (that’s why I deliberately post this lyrics).

Mind Your Own Life Lah…

I may sound like too big for one’s britches but that is your own problem because you judge me without even knowing me properly and consider yourself have been in my shoes after knowing or chatting with me just for a few months? Hello, I’m a two-fisted person who would blast anytime in real-time(eh? bukan PS3 term kaitu?). Hahaha~ At least, I don’t go for two-faces who opt for face-saving and then backstabbing others – You said I’m the one who backstabbed you? Hello… Who blurted out everything at the first place? I know there are some people out there who are talking behind me. Thanks, at least I’m in every corner of your mind 24/7, 12 months a year, 365 days a year. I LOVE YOU for mentioning my name to other people because you make my life even GLAMOROUS. Don’t blame them for their inability to keep their mouth shut, anyway. Moreover, I’m so sorry for neglecting or ignoring you that you feel like I’m the most  *blur turus indatau apa mo tulis* as I don’t have time to entertain those who can’t even keep their body from minding others’ life. Keep on mentioning my name and this time make sure you tell more saucy gossips about me kio so bila sampai di telinga sia, I can  burst into laugh! (^_^)V Well, I can  persistently and patiently remain silent now but once I pressed the STARTbutton, then you will surely be a victim of my devil’s advocates? It sure going to be really really fun to play with! I’ll play until it’s CHECKMATE and GAME OVER!

Kakakakkakak~ If you’re asking who… Sepa yang terasa pedas, dialah tu… Kanapa? Ko terasa padas kah? Wahahahahahha~ Kidding! Kada kotogod kio… Kurudot moti muka… Inda bagus untuk kesihatan… Kikikikikikiki~ Anyway, thanks for reading this post… You must be very curious ni kan sebab itu tajuk pun sudah cukup untuk buat ko turus ingat sia ni direly in bad mood kan? Muahahaha~ Relaxlah bah, kawang… Have a nice day, anyway… I should start to compose a warning letter kali ni… Muahahhah~ Sot sot sot… *Sia ulang sekali lagi supaya inda ada urang tanya lagi, JANGAN PERCAYA 100% DENGAN APA YANG SIA TULIS DI SINI SEBAB INDA SEMUANYA BUTUL…* Muahahaha~ Bah Bah… Ali Bah Bah!

*another confession kaini? Kijap… Mau cari lu tu tanduk kambing emmmmbek… Muahahahahah!*

Maka dengan itu, saya dengan bangganya mengumumkan bahawa theory saya selama ini diterima pakai oleh saya sendiri…”YOU CAN NEVER ZIPPED THE MOUTH OF OTHER PEOPLE BECAUSE YOU CAN NEVER HAVE THE ABILITY TO CONTROL THEIR MIND“

p.s. I know some my friends are well aware of this words… This is how I assume people as… Well… Only some of them…

A Friend is…

It means you believe that a friend can keep your secret safe in her/his place – even if the thing is all about your life and death… The thing that she/he cannot even tell her/his family. Sometimes it can stand for someone that you can depend on, in short, reliable. And then… It can also mean that there’s thing in this world that can let your spirit down and he/she will never leave you… Stay beside you… Keep believing that you’re not wrong, etc. Itulah kalau sia rasa lah…

BUT… As for me and my life, I need a FRIEND who knows where to limit herself even as a friend or bestfriend… Iyalah… Masing-masing ada privacy juga, kan. So, I don’t believe in sharing TOP SECRET with anyone anymore as it can always be used as an INSTRUMENT to stab whenever there’s a slight misunderstanding or dissatisfaction between both of us. I’ve experienced it before… 9 years ago and it still hurts… A friend whom I believe but then crippled and crushed me into dust… I just hate the feeling of being insecure and most of all, betrayal… Well, the best thing to keep a SECRET is either to keep them all in DIARY as what (the late) Aki Kato did when she was struggling with her life… Haiyah! Balik lagi ingat tu 1 Litre of Tears! OR… Whisper a prayer and have a small talk with God… OR…. Share it with the one that you’ve VOWED to live with until the day you die… Well, sepa lagi kalau bukan tu husband or wife… Heheheheh~ A mere friend yang inda ada ikatan yang sah mimang susah siiiikit mo percaya… No offend kio… Correct me if I’m wrong sebab I don’t mind if korang ada idea lain… It’s fun to have someone yang berani mengutarakan his/her own opinions… Kasitau sia if sia cakap silap kalau inda butul tu opinion patut diberi kebebasan… Heheheheh~

I Believe in CHANGE

I’m currently listening to R. Kelly’s I Believe. Last time his most famous song itu I Believe I Can Fly, OST Space Jam tu bah. Ini Mr. I Believe ni sekarang muncul with another ‘I BELIEVE’… I guess after this mesti ada lagi tu ‘I BELIEVE IN MY DREAM’. Wakakakka~ Kidding ah. I’d say that this song is quite uplifting, inspiring, encouraging… Um… What else ah… Sia rasa itu saja lah. Even though it’s actually a tribute song for Barrack Obama (Oh yeah, I love him more than Bush). There’s something about him yang buat me terpikat… No! Not his eyes! His speech… His vision… and of course, his voice! Buahahahhaha~ Nah nah… Start sudah kah sia ini. Heheheheh~ Anyway, I’d say that I BELIEVE THAT WE NEED TO CHANGE, sometimes… Well… Mimanglah most of us are afraid with the ‘CHANGE’… Taboo taboo… It’s because of our feel of insecuritiness. What am I going to change? Hmmm… NEXT SONG, please… I’ll tell you later about that once I found the song yang ngam dengan apa yang sia mo ‘CHANGE’ – If only you’re someone who never missed out what’s going on in my blog… Bukan bilang ko busybody, well… I do appreciate people who visit and read my sot sot sot ramblings here despite of my broken grammar (you can see how weak my English is especially when it comes to VOCABULARY – my konpesion sudah ni! XD)…

Molten Lava Chocolate

Novie has made me really really really really TIGIRAN… I don’t care lah if she’s a human being… She has made me wanna TALAN HIDUP HIDUP. Adakah YM YM saja turus bilang Molten Lava Chocolcate Cake! Cis cis cis! Inda apa… Nanti tiba-tiba sia turus fly pigi KL, baru dia tau… Inda pa… I think I’ve found the recipe over the Internet and I’ll bake one this week or probably next week as I need to sort of things lu by this week. She asked me apa flavour yang paling sia suka… Well… I rank my favourite flavours as follows:

#1 – Yam (Kajen-kajen sia bilang ini urang tua punya flavour. Bagi sia, yam lah yang paling inda manis and that’s why mostly orang tua suka makan. Anyway, banyak khasiat bah Yam.)

#2 – Chocolate (Ngam untuk kalau time kesejukan and rasa mo kasi tambah berat badan. I’d prefer DARK CHOCOLATE sebab it’s good for skin… Anti-oxidant bah!)

#3 – Durian (I’m a Durian craze but due to health reason… I need to limit and if possible to restrain myself from indulging with the flavour of Durian. Kasian kan?)

#4 – Vanilla (I’d stick to unsweetened vanilla… Yang inda banyak gula… In other words, inda terlampau manis. Kalau inda, I’ll end up paning-paning lalat…)

#5 – Lemon (Sadap bah ni especially after a friend purposedly bagi sia makan Lemon Pie the other day… SADAP!)

OK… Me sambung lagi chatting sama si Novie… Click her name for more… Itu gambar si Novie tu.

p.s. who is Novie? She’s actually my kajen… If you happened to know DENGKOS, then itulah juga si dengkos punya kajen. The world is really a small place to live after all!