Monday

It’s Monday and I’m in the office just to get all jobs done before sending them off to ‘somewhere’ later. I deal with numbers, and I investigate any discrepancies in ratios, percentage, and record. Forex is just another playground as I view it as a long-term investment; not a ‘get-rich-speedy-fast-scheme’. Economics is just a place for me to get new vision if any suprises might tick me to do SL or TP. The jargons may only be understood by those who are in the same wagon as saya. Blessed Monday.

Life as We Know It

Love is what binds us, respect is what unites us. To have love and respect for all life forms guarantees you an excellent quality of life because you will be walking around in sheer reverence to all you come across. There will never be a dull or uninspired moment.

In life we do things. Some we wish we had never done. Some we wish we could replay a million times in our heads. But they all make us who we are, and in the end they shape every detail about us. If we were to reverse any of them, we wouldn’t be the person we are. So, just live, make mistakes, have wonderful memories, but never ever second guess who you are, where you have been, and most importantly where it is you’re going.

We can never turn back the pages of time, though we may wish to relive a happy moment, or say goodbye just one last time. We never can because the sands of time continue to fall and we cannot turn the hourglass over.

Life will break you. Nobody can protect you from that & living alone won’t either, for solitude will also break you with its yearning. You’ve to love & feel. It’s the reason you’re here on Earth. You’re here to risk your heart, to be swallowed up & when it happens that you’re broken, or betrayed, or left, or hurt, or death brushes near, let yourself sit by an apple tree & listen to the apples falling all around you in heaps, wasting their sweetness. Tell yourself you tasted as many as you could.

Fernanda Brum – Há Um Rio (There’s A River)

Há um rio

Fernanda Brum

Há um rio cujas águas,

Alegram a cidade de Deus, 

O santuário do altíssimo.

Onde o Rei está 

Assentado a destra do Pai 

Poderoso pra derramar 

Águas que saram 

Águas que lavam 

Águas que refrigeram 

Águas que quebram maldições 

Águas que moldam 

Águas que purificam 

Águas que santificam 

Água de paz

This one is translated from Portuguese into English. I’m not really sure if it’s accurately translated but the lyrics sounds a bit like this lah… Correct me if I mistakenly translated it as I used Google Translate bah. One of my favourite Christian song.

There’s a river

Fernanda Brum

There’s a river whose waters

Cheers the city of God

The sanctuary of the highest one

Where the King 

Is seated on the right of powerful Father 

For the spill of 

Waters that heal 

Waters that wash 

Waters that refrigerated 

Waters that break curses 

Waters that mold 

Waters that purify 

Waters that sanctify 

Water of peace

Left Without Turning Back

Life is pretty busy these days as I have to juggle between works, and studies. I'd like to thank all who have wished me on my birthday (and 'after' my birthday). Thank you for spending a few minutes (or seconds) to write a nice birthday message. I hope I've replied everyone, I really appreciate all the wishes, and even printed them out to put into my scrapbook.

It doesn't matter if the birthday wishes come from a total stranger, as long as it's sincerely wished. Friends are blessings from God, but those who are just mingling around to knock you down are lessons that not all people can be your friends, because some of them would come and teach you about life. Yet, being sincere and honest can sometimes misunderstood by some people. Being misused is another issue, yet, this taught us a very good lesson of who to trust, and who are worth to be ignored. This reminds me of the advices from my late grandpa (before he passed away), "Apa macam sekali orang lain kasi ketuk ko sampai jatuh, ko jalan terus saja." (Never looked back when people knocked you down.)

For people who have called me as one who have mental problem or crazy, I'd say 'Thank you' for addressing me like that. I'd like to quote an article (shall I post journals or research, too?) for people who love to address me (and the others, who knows?) as 'crazy'...

"...You could make a very long list of all the supposedly “crazy” business leaders who accomplished truly great things. That list would have to include people like Steve Jobs, Thomas Edison, Howard Hughes, Richard Branson, and Ted Turner. In the world of literature, that list would have people like Allen Ginsberg and Sylvia Plath and Vladimir Nabokov on it. In politics, your list of crazy people would have to include Martin Luther King Jr. and Mahatma Gandhi..."

The 'wrecked' ship may shrink and pollute one part of the ocean, but that won't turn the whole ocean into a place that cannot be wondered and awed by others who still appreciate the mysteries of the ocean. And over time, the 'wrecked' ship may just stay down there, deep under the ocean, admired by a few, and a home for the others. The ocean, on the other hand, will still be awed, amazed, and feared for its beauty, and power to destroy.

Last but not least, never looked down on others... If you're the one who brought them up there. Why? Because you never know what you've taught them, and you never know what are their SWOT. LOL! Once again, thank you for all the birthday wishes, and I pray that God showers you with blessings and happiness. I got birthday wishes from Whatsapp, LINE, WeChat, Private Messages, Twitter, SMS, and calls. Last but not least, to the one that never fail to lend his shoulder, I love you so much, Mr W.

p.s: Wine and cheese get better with age. Yet, some people get better and others get wiser. Growing old is inevitable and one has to learn by themselves through their experiences.

Beneath the Façade of Friendship

A true friendship is a feeling of love, sharing and caring. Friendship is not a façade for someone to play 'hide-and-seek'. It is a feeling that someone understands and appreciates you as you are, without any exaggeration, flattery and pretensions. Moreover, a true friend stands by you through thick and thin, and they will never stab behind you.

Friends don't do things like lovers usually do. They don't kiss passionately. They don't have sex. They don't do things 'romantically'. Yet, some people are squeezing out the advantages out from their friends, especially those who have close friends of opposite sex. It cannot be blamed when one has the fear of losing his or her close friends. We all have that 'fear'. It's not novel, but sometimes we are unconscious with the actions taken due to that 'fear'. For instance, some guys would tell others that they had sex with his best friend. The reason is obvious - Either because he doesn't want to lose her, or it's because he wanted to keep his ego or pride on the line. The consequences of such action might be intolerable as this involves downgrading the dignity of a woman, and a friend. He might have a 'temporary' winning cup, but once the secret is revealed then the game is over. A 'true friend' would forgive and forget, but does that still make a friend to stick with you after all the trusts have been broken into pieces? It happens around us, everyday. Sometimes, we do hear this thing happened to our dear friends, yet, we are unable to help them. Instead, we would keep distancing ourselves from this kind of people. The disappointment is there as the trust has been broken. Think thoroughly before you say a thing or even share the stories of your close friends to others. You might need to consider that not all of us would love to listen to the story, but having a juicy gossip is enough to make us considered as updated.

What would you do if you heard when one of your friend badmouthing or making a false statement of his or her close friend? Who would you trust after you've listened to both sides of the story?