I Smile To Hide The PAIN

I don’t know what I’m feeling right now… I’m trying to gather my courage… I’ve promised myself that I won’t cry even though it really hurts deep inside my heart but sometimes I find it’s too difficult to deny the painfulness. It really awkward… I do feel it’s too strange to find myself smiling while I’m in pains… I smile when I’m nervous, I smile when I want to sad, I smile when I’m sad, I smile when I don’t know what to talk with the person, I smile when I find I’m stupid, I smile when I am happy, I smile when I feel it’s weird, I smile when I miss him, I smile when talking to him, I smile when I’m in pains, I smile when I just don’t know what else to do… You may call me crazy but… I just can’t stop from smiling…

I Smile to Hide the Pain

I smile and laugh to hide what I feel

Even when the pain gets unreal

I joke and play everyday

While inside I hide my dismay

I look like I’m happy

While I really feel shabby

When I turn away

To find another way

To hide in my eyes

A sorrow inside

As grey as the skies

Then I smile to hide

Travisa Delores Browing

Kadus Entertainment’s 3rd Gathering

There will be Kadus Entertainment’s 3rd Gathering which will be held on 18 October 2008. I’ve been designing things for KE since 2005. For more information on the gathering, click here, dbos also has posted the news here. They pilih the 3rd design… Simple saja bah tu (I’m in a rush mo buat kerja banyak bah)…

p.s. Local artistes mimang ramai yang datang… Papier Mache pun dijangka datang wor~

Listless + Photos = *Unknown Situation*

I didn’t get enough of sleep yesterday as I had to finish up our group assignment which needs to be submitted tomorrow (23/9/2008). I fell asleep on the couch – I hadn’t get enough of rest since last Tuesday lagi and then hang out with friends on Friday… Pigi cari makan-makan… Yesterday was a bit tensed… Then, I went to have my hair snipped into something which I haven’t done since 8 years ago. I thought it was a total disaster, crash or something awful! MMS-ed my new look to a friend – Nasiblah itu kawan comment yang bagus-bagus, kalau inda… Turus sia kasi BUTAK. Hahahahaha… Kidding! Anyway, I won’t post any photos of mine for the time being. Nanti takut ada urang kena stroke. Enjoy the latest photos taken during Pathfinder activities at the church last Sunday. Ambil gambar untuk kasi hilang rasa mengantuk yang teramat sangat!

p.s. I’m trying to get all things fixed by tomorrow.

Prevent Yourself From Walking Slipper-Less

If your slipper is too fancy and always attract other people to use your slippers? Then it’s time for you to ‘apply’ this interesting tips to prevent yourself from walking slippers-less in the future…

{LOCK LAH YOUR SLIPPERS}

Harga selipar also naik sudah bah… :P

Me Sooooooooooo BZ

I’m so busy right now… I need to get things done before next week! Gosh! I just need a break… Will be away for a few days – Meaning there won’t be any updates until things are settled up…

Anyway, really appreciate those comments and shoutbox. Heheheheheh~ Happy fasting to my Muslim friends out there…. 

Chao~ I’m going to hit the sack now! (-_-)

I’m Just Me (With a Life)

I bumped into my ex-bf’s blog just now. Saja mau lawat kan sebab long time sudah inda lawat-lawat blog kawan-kawan (including his blog). Glad that he’s enjoying his life right now, and he really deserves it. But I was quite dissappointed juga lah if people are using shoutbox, comments, etc. to insult the author, owner, person. I’ve been in that shoe before… And, of course, I’m speechless. I was deeply hurt by the statement (panjang lebar bah dat comment), like ‘she’ has known me for aeons. Anyway, I assume that she must have a reason to make such statement – We’ll never know (and of course, I don’t want to know also but how I wish to meet that person). OK.. I’m done with the past thingy and all I need now is to move on (yeah! yeah! Go for it!)… I have a life going forward (and not backward) and I don’t have the mood to turn back (ever!) even though I’m pulled backward (sometimes).

p.s. I’m happy that I’m gradually changing and suiting myself with the new environment. To get closer with God is even challenging but I do enjoy every single of it because I believe He’s always stay beside me. I may fear of seeing the future (what will I be in the next few years) but as long as God is there, anything is possible!

Jordin Sparks – One Step At A Time

One Step At A Time

Jordin Sparks

Hurry up and wait

So close, but so far away

Everything that you’ve always dreamed of

Close enough for you to taste

But you just can’t touch

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet

Wonder when and where and how you’re gonna make it

You know you can if you get the chance

In your face as the door keeps slamming

Now you’re feeling more and more frustrated

And you’re getting all kind of impatient waiting

[Chorus:]

We live and we learn to take

One step at a time

There’s no need to rush

It’s like learning to fly

Or falling in love

It’s gonna happen and it’s

Supposed to happen that we

Find the reasons why

One step at a time

You believe and you doubt

You’re confused, you got it all figured out

Everything that you always wished for

Could be yours, should be yours, would be yours

If they only knew

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet

Wonder when and where and how you’re gonna make it

You know you can if you get the chance

In your face as the door keeps slamming

Now you’re feeling more and more frustrated

And you’re getting all kind of impatient waiting

[Chorus]

When you can’t wait any longer

But there’s no end in sight

when you need to find the strength

It’s the faith that makes you stronger

The only way you get there

Is one step at a time

[Chorus x2]