I Smile To Hide The PAIN

I don’t know what I’m feeling right now… I’m trying to gather my courage… I’ve promised myself that I won’t cry even though it really hurts deep inside my heart but sometimes I find it’s too difficult to deny the painfulness. It really awkward… I do feel it’s too strange to find myself smiling while I’m in pains… I smile when I’m nervous, I smile when I want to sad, I smile when I’m sad, I smile when I don’t know what to talk with the person, I smile when I find I’m stupid, I smile when I am happy, I smile when I feel it’s weird, I smile when I miss him, I smile when talking to him, I smile when I’m in pains, I smile when I just don’t know what else to do… You may call me crazy but… I just can’t stop from smiling…

I Smile to Hide the Pain

I smile and laugh to hide what I feel

Even when the pain gets unreal

I joke and play everyday

While inside I hide my dismay

I look like I’m happy

While I really feel shabby

When I turn away

To find another way

To hide in my eyes

A sorrow inside

As grey as the skies

Then I smile to hide

Travisa Delores Browing